Well, I'll be surprised if anyone reads this, but I have a little time so....
Much has happened in the past two months since I've written in this blog, yet so little. Working at the turkey plant is okay, but I will soon seek a better, higher-paying job at Crown. Hopefully I get it.
I haven't been online much because I have slow Internet access at home and I frankly just don't have time to go to the library everyday. Work, girlfriend and sleep is well enough to fill the full capacity of what is my current life.
So far, I have saved up only $1000 in my bank account from working. Not too bad, but the longer I savor my money, the harder it is not to spend it.
I bought Spencer's Casio keyboard for about $450. I want to sell it already though I don't even have it paid off for. Once I do, I will sell it to a music store hopefully, then I want to use the money to get a better keyboard I saw online: A Studio Logic 880. I heard it played on YouTube the other day and I love the sound of it. $600ish, but I have my keyboard to sell, along with a clarinet and an old flute and a Chinese-made violin that I will never learn to play.
Oh yeah, I finally got my first car for my 21st birthday. A 1998 Pontiac Grand Am... Pretty nice, excellent condition. Car insurance wasn't as bad as I expected either.
I can't say I'll miss college itself, but I sure will miss all my friends: Luke, Spencer, Alex and Tyler... Maybe I wasn't a big enough party animal. I'm not a big drinker like everyone else up at BG... Maybe the university could see that I was sort of an outsider. I mean, I could've tried to convince the university that I was depressed most of my time there. I mean, in retrospect, I can see that that was my main problem... Too bad I couldn't have seen it then. I did get some counseling, but maybe not enough.
Oh well, it was my lack of communication that failed me. Now I must do things the hard way. I go to work with a bunch of assholes everyday. People who will try to bring me down to their level once they find out that I'm not going back to school. I'll be muddled up with the blue collar population...
Maybe what Luke said is right: The best art will never be seen, read, or heard. I hope that my music gets me out of this place.............
