Just an update...

Well, it's been months.

I have matured a bit. And I never really thought I'd ever be the type, but I have invested my faith into Jesus Christ. No one told me to, nothing inspired me to... I just had a calling, I guess.

At first, I thought that it was just something that would come and go, like it normally does, but I decided to make it my duty to keep my faith.

I guess sometimes I feel like my life no longer has purpose. I work all day, have thousands of creative ideas, and by time I get home I am too physically and mentally exhausted to put my ideas into action.

But prayer is something I can always depend on. Although I used to think that being apart of an organized religion is superficial, I've come to realize that it doesn't matter how I have faith, but just that I have it.

I still have deep thoughts, but I try to keep roots with my religion. Tonight I had a thought about heaven and whether or not such a place actually exists. I figured that if heaven does really exist, I hope to never arrive. Sounds a little disappointing, but think about it: If when you die you go to heaven, what is left for your soul to discover? I mean, once you have reached the goal of entering heaven's gates, and you spend an eternity digesting a happiness so unbelievably huge, you'd eventually run bored of it.

I'm starting to think that heaven only exists as an idea. God has us all chasing after this Promised Land that isn't made of stone and clay...

Life is a mystery... And I hope that it always stays that way for me.